Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Stuff That's Happening and Other Thoughts

1. This is my fifth year teaching band. Yesterday, I stood in front of my band and asked them to sit patiently and quietly while we spent about 15 minutes taking up forms, passing out forms, and a few other administrative things. For the first time EVER in my teaching career, they did exactly what I told them. They sat there patiently and didn't say a peep. I didn't even think that was possible. I can't believe how awesome my group is this year. This might be the first year I don't spend my free time thinking about what other career path I could take.

2. There is a good possibility that I might try optimism this year. I'm still on the fence about it. Is it ironic that I feel pessimistic about trying optimism?

3. There is no substitute for hard work.

4. If you have all the latest technology, a gaming system, a data package on your cell plan, new clothes, a nice car, a nice house, a huge flat screen television, the ability to take a vacation, and the luxury to eat out EVER.......then you are not broke and shouldn't pretend that you are. I'm going to venture a guess that you are able to swing $30 a month for your kid to have a trumpet. And don't act like you didn't have 4 months notice to take care of the necessary arrangements. Get with the program and get involved in your kid's life.

5. Parents will be the reason that my quest for optimism will be challenging. Seeing kids flourish in spite of their ridiculous parents may be the reason it succeeds.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

The Upside of 30

A few weeks ago I was really struggling with bidding adieu to my 20's. Being an eternal pessimist, this was a natural for me. So I am trying to embrace the positive aspects of being 30 and trying to make things work in my favor. Here are some things I know for sure:

on being single......
It's hard being a single, working 30 year old girl. It's also fabulous. It means I work harder, but it also means I can play harder. After working a 50+ hour week, I am the only one that can cook meals, clean the house, do the laundry, take out the trash, pay the bills, and shop for groceries, all while trying to maintain some sort of semblance of a life. It isn't easy and I don't always do it with the grace that makes people comfortable. On the upside, I pretty much do what I want, when I want, and I don't allow people to let me feel guilty about the self-indulgent things I do to recharge my soul. You have a family that loves you and helps you shoulder the load of life, and I have pedicures, margaritas, cute shoes, and the ability to fly by the seat of my pants and go where ever I want to go whenever I want to go there. Maybe that sounds a little materialistic, but if you were a 30 year old single working girl, you would have (and need) all of these things, too.

on life........
It is amazing what the learning curve has been up to this point in life. Major changes occur between 18 and 24. A different sort of major change occurs between 24 and 29. I would not trade my experiences for ANYTHING. I have no regrets about the choices I've made for my life. I have not always chosen the easy path, but struggling has built character. Taking a more difficult path as led to some great experiences and some great friends. And it's true that the harder you work, the greater the reward. I think that now, more than ever, it is important for young women to have a sense of self and independence. There are a lot of girls out there that never learn important life skills because they never had to. If I had to offer a piece of advice to young girls just graduating high school I would say: Learn to do things by yourself, be involved in something in college besides your boyfriend, and learn how to read a map. If you can do all of those things, then you won't have to settle on someone not good enough for you and have the confidence to go live your life and find a man worth while. There are going to times in life when things get scary, but all you really need to get out alive are confidence and good friends. And if that doesn't work, then at least you know how to read a map so you can move on to the next experience. Don't settle being comfortably miserable.

on work and career..........
Now that I'm 30, I'm not the new gal anymore. I feel like the past year was a milestone year where I gained confidence and learned that I know way more than I was giving myself credit for. My job is more mentally and emotionally draining than anything. There are days when it is worth it and there are days when it is not. I think I've come to the realization (and have succumbed to the fact) that I am a masochist and I love it. I know that I said this earlier, but the harder you work, the greater the rewards. And it's true. I got the once in a lifetime opportunity to open a new school and pretty much had the odds stacked against me. But I worked my butt off and made it something I can be proud of. Even though I cried more than care to admit, I complained, I kicked and screamed, and I comforted myself with too much chocolate, I did it. And the modest success that we have achieved feels more rewarding to me because I DID IT. I wouldn't have it any other way. I am a very intense and passionate person and there is no endeavor in my life that I will face passively and half heartedly. I work hard because I want to. I work hard because I have to. I work hard because I don't want my name associated with mediocrity. I work hard because no one else is going to work hard for me. I work hard because of the satisfaction I feel at the end of the day. It is not my style to advance my career by rubbing elbows or stroking egos. It is my style to work hard as hard as I can, learn as much as I can, and help out as much as I can. Hard work hasn't done me wrong yet.


Sunday, July 19, 2009

Just For the Record......

I'm not dealing so well with being 30.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Cake Decorating/Sociological Observations

At my 2nd cake decorating class tonight we had to come prepared with several different things. We had to have an iced cake, three different consistencies of icing, and several tools to work with. It took me several hours over the last few days to get all this stuff ready. All this being said, it was interesting to watch all the people arrive. Watching these people helps me understand how some of my students act the way they do. They inherit all of these traits from their parents. Good and bad.

I sat in between two mother/daughter participants. The pair to my right was there early, prepared with everything they needed, and were very attentive during class. They tried really hard when it was time to decorate cakes. The daughter looked like she'd be a rock star bassoon player. The pair to my left came in late dressed like they were going to the club, had practically nothing prepared, and had no interest in actually getting better at the techniques. The daughter was bored after doting about 20 stars on her cake and spent the last 30 minutes of class texting and whining to her mother about wanting to leave. She would probably play the flute and give up by mid-September when she figured out it took actual work to play. Then there was the cutie pie 11 year old there by herself and wanting to cover her cake with icing clowns. I admired her tenacity and work ethic. She would make an awesome clarinet player.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

The Alcocer Art Project

Earlier this week the Alcocers and I embarked on an art project to hang on their awkward wall. I talked Jennifer into making a giant mirror piece that involved 27 square IKEA mirrors, two tubes of liquid nails, a 90 in. x 30 in. piece of plywood, staining, and lots of measuring and drilling. Here's what we did:


Cristian did all of the measuring and drilling. He had to find all the studs and then match the spacing of the hooks on the back of the plywood with what he measured on the wall. Slightly complicated. Good thing he paid attention in high school math class.


Jennifer stained the outer edges of the plywood. We learned too late that we should have just stained the whole thing. We'll know for next time. (Cristian was still inside measuring).


We unwrapped 27 mirrors. (Cristian is still measuring).


We sat in the driveway and glued the mirrors on the plywood. We tried in vain to keep them aligned perfectly, but as most handmade things go, it ended up with a few slight imperfections.


To make sure that all the mirrors adhered to the plywood we clamped the sides and weighted down the rest with lots of bricks. It looked sort of like we were creating a grave for body be had to get rid of.


And alas, the finished product! I think it turned out GREAT considering that this was our first major construction project. Thank you HGTV for giving us the confidence to do it! It's a one-of-kind piece and I hope the Alcocers enjoy it for many years! I'm kinda jealous now and want to make one for myself......



Sunday, June 28, 2009

Stolen Wisdom

Stolen from Natasha's blog:


"If only we wanted to be happy, it would be easy;
but we want to be happier than other people, which is difficult, since we think them happier than they are." - Montesquieu


Saturday, June 27, 2009

Today's Theme: Multiple Meltdowns

I am currently having a meltdown on many figurative and literal levels.

-It's 3:30, it's 106 degrees, and it's only June. Running around trying to get my data retrieved instead of sitting in a tub of ice.

-Apple people told me that they would be able to find my data on my pc and transfer it to my mac. Then today they said they can't do it. Sent me to a computer place in west Ft. Worth that I couldn't find because it has been closed for 6 months. Thanks Apple dudes. I'm trying to focus my computer anger towards Bill Gates right now, so I don't have the time or energy to be angry at two different types of computers. If I have lost three years worth of music and pictures, Bill Gates better run. No amount of chocolate and wine and is going to be able to console me. I mean, who backs up, really? (I know, I know, I've learned my lesson). I'm not amused by feeling this helpless.

-I'm turning 30 in less than a month. I can't decide if I'm ready to have my 20's and all of it's turmoil behind me, or if I'm going to mourn the the loss of an age when indecisiveness was acceptable because you're still "finding yourself". I'm having a lot of mixed feelings about it. Kinda can't believe I'm this old. I don't feel it. I guess that's good, right? I mean, it's going to happen. It's not like I can stop it now! Guess I just need to buckle up and enjoy the ride.

On the plus side today, I had a fun lunch at the Spiral Diner with Tara and I still have my health, my house, my friends, and my job. And if you know of a good computer repair service, please let me know.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Sweet Lime Photography

My talented friend, Natasha, has started a wonderful little photography business called Sweet Lime Photography. Please take a minute to check out her website by clicking here and her blog by clicking here. If you are looking for an attentive, creative, and affordable photographer for your next family photo session, please consider her as your photographer! I think her work is amazing. She does more than capture smiles-she captures personalities.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

So yeah.......parenting is NOT for me!!!

I've had Abby with me for 26 hours and I'm ready to throw in the towel. Not that this is a new revelation to me, but now I'm 746% sure I don't ever want children. I admire all you parents out there that do this with grace, but this is not for me.

Tomorrow we are going to Fossil Rim. You can check it out at www.fossilrim.org. I'm sure it will be fun, but it takes a little over an hour to get there and then we are driving to my parents house....four hours away. Oh my gosh - this will be the greatest test of my patience and will ever.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Adventures in Babysitting

Did anyone else ever see that movie back in the 80's? My dad let us watch it one summer without my mother knowing. Well, she didn't know until Vicki dropped an F bomb in front of my parents and their friends one night while she was re-enacting one of the scenes. My dad got in trouble. I mean Vicki was like 6. She didn't need to be watching that stuff.....nor did I, really.....

Anyway - I'm going to pick up Abigail from Vicki today. I haven't kept her by herself since last summer. A year ago she was still in her cute, cuddly little toddler phase when she wanted to give everyone a hug. She's still cute but she is SASSY! She is all drama, all the time. So this little visit should be interesting. I'm excited to get to see her one-on-one. Last time she was here she was with my mom and she wouldn't even let me LOOK at her if Gram was around. I would try to fix her hair and she'd say, "NO! I want Gram to fix my hair!" I would try to make her mac and cheese and she'd say, "NO! I want Gram to make my mac and cheese!" I would try to take her potty and she'd say, "NO! I want Gram to take me potty!" So maybe I'll actually get to play with her since Gram won't be here. Maybe I'll have some pictures to post instead of my boring stories!

Friday, June 12, 2009

Amusing Story for You. Yes, You

So, earlier in the week I went to Denton to hang out with friends. We were hanging out at the Ferman's playing some Wii when the guys quickly exited to the backyard for what I thought was a cigarette, guy talk, and more beer. They were out there for a while and so I poked my head out to see what they were doing. No cigarettes, no beer, and certainly no guy talk. They were having some in depth conversation about lilies and admiring Josh's giant rosemary and basil plants. I had a good chuckle thinking about walking in on their conversations eight years ago. I guess their conversations are maturing and evolving. Maybe they'll start a garden club.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Quotations of the Day

One from Jennifer Alcocer and one from Jon Stewart:

from Jennifer, who is teaching JH Band Camp at SFA this week:
Kid: Wow lady, your flute is fancy, is it a Selmer?
Jenn: Yes it is fancy, no it isn't a Selmer.
Kid: Well whatever it is, it sure does make a fancy sounds.

(for my non-band friends: Selmer=Kia. Gets the job done, but definitely not fancy)

from Jon Stewart, comedic genius, in response to CNN anchors asking him to follow them twitter:
"Why do I have to follow CNN on twitter? If I want to follow CNN, then I'll just turn on CNN."

Saturday, June 6, 2009

5 Reasons I Like Summer Break

1. No alarm clocks.
2. I get to drink coffee in my bed.
3. Three delicious home cooked meals a day.
4. Late night bubble baths.
5. Naps.


And these are just a few of the things I got to enjoy on my first official day of summer. Looking forward to more fun times!

Thursday, June 4, 2009

First Blog of Summer!

Hard to believe that I just finished my third year at Trinity Springs. It's been a roller coaster ride of emotional, mental, and physical stamina. Last week I was ready for a career change. Maybe I still am, but that decision will be made at another time and I will reflect on that in another blog. Today was way more emotional than I expected last day to be, both good and bad, and I need to be emotionally removed from the year before I start making life altering decisions. One thing I do know is that there need to be some major changes in my life.

On to lighter topics! I'm so excited for summer. I'm very much looking forward to being home. I have so many things I want to do this summer. Really, I just want to enjoy a creative process. Anything that gets the creative juices flowing. I'm going to redecorate my room which will require me to paint again. I will be working on some necklaces that I was inspired to make after my trip to Austin. I have an idea for creatively cataloging all the pictures I have sitting in shoe boxes. I have at least a half a dozen recipes I want to try. I will be taking cake decorating classes! I am looking forward to catching up with friends. I am looking forward to hanging out with new friends. I am turning 30. So, I've got plenty to do. I'm just ready to get reacquainted with myself, and maybe find parts of me I feel I've lost along this journey in "the real world."

Quick Story with my trademark sarcasm:
As I checked out at Target today, the little debit card swiper thing asked me if I wanted the entire amount on my card. I was thinking, duh, that's why I swiped it. I mean if I had said no would it have given me a screen that said: No problem - Target would be happy to pay for part of your purchase. Please enter the amount that you would like Target to contribute to your purchase today. I wanted to bargain with it......like, ok, I'll pay for the coffee if you'll pay for the creamer and hair conditioner. I'm totally going to do it next time - just for funsies.

Monday, May 11, 2009

Another Installment of: Awesomely Bad Baby Names

Sometimes when I need a laugh I visit the website of an East Texas hospital to see what kind of crazy names people come up with for their children. Here are some of my favorites:

Geiser Iliana
Zayden Amari
Ja'mya Lee (her sister is Jazlyn)
Jakyrha Shamarion
Kambrea Jeaunna (her sister is Khy'Liyah
Rowdy Randon - this is my personal favorite since Turk and JD have a dead stuffed dog named Rowdy on Scrubs. Rowdy is a super cool name for dead stuffed dog. I can only hope this is an homage to a great sitcom instead of redneck ignorance. But then I ask, why not Perry or Kelso or Todd..............

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Fairy Tales From TAKS Land

Let's chalk it up to me being super pms-y and just generally out of patience due to the end of the school year approaching, but I think I've met my 08-09 quota of kids doing stupid things. Today I had to monitor the lunch line during the TAKS test. During TAKS, the kids usually only have one choice of meal: a corndog. Well, today they got two choices: a corndog or a grilled cheese. The students can clearly see their choices through the glass covering the buffett. I can't tell you how many times kids would come through the line and say, "I'll have the pizza". What pizza? Do you see a freakin' piece of pizza ANYWHERE in the cafeteria? One kid asked for the eggroll. Where do see this alleged eggroll? The cafeteria ladies were so sweet to these kids and would say very nicely, "We don't have pizza today, sweetheart. Would you like a corny doy or a grilled cheese?" After the seventh kid asked for pizza, I started asking the kids, "Where do you see pizza?" Perhaps they were delusion from the TAKS test and starting hallucinating pieces of pizza. I know I was.....I just starting seeing mixed drinks everywhere. "I'll have the pina colada."

I don't have the patience to type anymore to tell you about the kid that Kai caught playing his gameboy on the crapper.......

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Pageant Politics

Ok. Everyone is all in a tizzy over Miss California's answer about gay marriage. While I don't agree with her answer, you gotta give a girl props for saying what she believes. All the morning shows are buzzing with talk about how Miss USA contestants should be a neutral party and answer the questions in way that doesn't lean to one side or the other. That's all fine and dandy, but then someone tell me why they ask the girls politically charged questions. If they don't want to hear the girls' opinions or thoughts on things that actually matter to Americans, then they need to ask questions like "What shade of pink do you prefer: blush or bashful?" or "How many puppies would you like to save from the dumpsters this year?" or "If you had to choose between cupcakes and unicorns, which would you choose?" If you want them to be charming and not have an opinion, don't ask them about hot topics. One of the other girls took a side and said she didn't feel it was right to use tax payer money to bail out banks, but no one is angry at her because she had an answer the majority of America wants hear. What if Miss California had said she WAS in favor of gay marriage? I wonder if that would have won her the crown. It's almost like people would like the woman representing them to be a bobble-headed Stepford wife that tells them what they want to hear because it's WAY easier to live in denial than to face the fact that a beautiful, educated woman might want to have an opinion about something. (Ya know kinda like the 2004 election). So, in conclusion, while I disagree with Miss California's stance on gay marriage, she wins my respect for taking a stand on what she believes in and making the choice to not give in pageant pressure. Do you like the key word in that sentence? CHOICE.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Meet Baby Caleb


Caleb Ryan Melhart was born on Monday April 13 at 11:45pm. 7lbs 6oz, 19in.








He is slowly warming up to his big sister. He better do it quick because she is BOSSY!


Abby hasn't figured out how to smile naturally yet.


I enjoyed watching her make a bead necklace. She concentrated very hard and I was surprised at how much she was able to do.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

I Made More Stuff......

It will probably be a while before I can sit down to my hobbies again so I went a little crazy this weekend!

I made these pendants out of the the clearance impulse buys I made a few days ago:



Either I am a really bad photographer, or my camera sucks, or both. I can't seem to get my camera to focus in on small things like this quirky owl charm:



I want to get a frame with a colorful matte for this little thing. I put that mark down paper to good use with this little number:

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Enjoying Some Free Time

Three day weekends are awesome! I can't wait until summer. I love doing stuff around the house and having the time to enjoy a creative process.

I made a few necklaces today:


This one is my favorite:




And this frame that I will finish up tomorrow:




Ahhhh.....only 7 more weeks and I can do this everyday!

Confessions of a Mark Down Shopper

I have a real problem. I can't resist purchasing stuff at the craft store that is on clearance. I mean, I have to get it. It is on clearance after all, and once they're gone, they're gone!! I went to get ONE package of little beads yesterday and I left with six packages of beads, a book of patterned scrapbook paper, a little box of chipboard embellishments that match the scrapbook paper, and a one set of silver rub-ons that I HAD to have. It was all on clearance so I felt the sense of urgency to purchase NOW! I'm such a sucker for priced-to-move crafting supplies. So last night Natasha mentioned she needed an orange necklace and I immediately knew where to get some super cute giant orange beads.......in the clearance bucket at Michael's!!!! Of course we went to get them and then I walked out with more jewelry making supplies. But I had a coupon for 40% off, so I don't feel TOO guilty about it. I have another coupon that is only good today, so we will find out today how much will power I actually have to resist the lure of the craft store.

I went to Home Depot yesterday and bought some runnuculus to spice up my entry door. I love them, and they would look even better if it was sunny outside today!





Sunday, April 5, 2009

Life After UIL

Ahhhhhh - the contentment of having UIL over with is a feeling I haven't experienced since I finished grad school. It's been such a relief. I'm sure it feels so good since we were successful. It feels great to finally have this sort of validation. I know there were people waiting for us to fall on our faces three years ago when we opened the school, which for us added another layer pressure just wanting so bad to prove everyone wrong. It hasn't been easy and it hasn't always been fun, but bringing home two Sweepstakes trophies made it all worth it this week.

And so there is life after UIL! I was about to write this blog and say that I haven't been this happy in years, and then my mom called to let me know my sister is probably going to have her baby tomorrow and I won't get to go see them until Thursday if I'm lucky. So now I'm not so happy, but I had a great weekend getting to do all the things I don't usually have the time or the energy to do. I've had a lot of fun making jewelry. Here are a few of the things I made this weekend:



This picture is totally blurry because my camera is a piece of junk, but these little charms are really cute. I can't wait to wear them this week. I'm looking forward to more free weekends, less stress, and only eight more weeks of school!!

Sunday, March 29, 2009

One Woman's Opinion

I really don't like going back to Pittsburg. I really don't. I always dread going and when I am there I like to just stay at my parent's house and not venture into town. I'm rarely there at the same times as my old friends, and I can keep up with them on Facebook anyway, and the few things I liked about the town when I lived there are now gone. It has nothing to do with my family - I just don't like Pittsburg. I'm writing this blog because of a few different things I experienced yesterday....and I wasn't even in Pittsburg - I was in Tyler. For all of eight hours.

There is a certain small mindedness that is present in smaller towns. I know that there are small minded people in big cities, too, but it is way easier to avoid them when you live in the 4th largest metro area in the nation. Not so easy to avoid in the second smallest county in Texas. Life is just different over there. I never felt like I fit in. Not at the high school, but in the town. I actually really liked my classmates and never felt like the sterotypical band nerd that I was. I think we had a great class all through school, and looking back I feel like everyone got along for the most. It was always the adults that made me feel uncomfortable. I felt like there were certain teachers at school and people around the community that were never going to give a crap about me because my parents didn't have money and status in the community, or because I wasn't an athlete. I just felt like kids were automatically written off by a lot of people if they were from a certain part of town. It's a lot harder to teach a kid that doesn't get to eat breakfast, or that doesn't have a father at home because they are in jail, or that has to take care of younger siblings because mom has to work late, or that sees things on a daily basis that some of us only see on TV crime shows. I truly felt that a lot of kids were not given the same opportunities and were given up on quickly and at an early age simply because of their demographic. Not by everyone, but I would be comfortable saying a majority of the community. And this was just accepted. And this doesn't happen just in Pittsburg, it happens all over the state and the country and the world. (This is one reason why I love the intermediate school I work at. Our administration is TRULY dedicated to leaving no child behind. It's hard work and emotional work, but we share the philosophy that despite a student's demographic they are all able to learn and deserve the same chance as more fortunate students to better their lives and end the cyle of poverty.) I really think I recognized this divide at a young age and didn't like it. It just felt like if you weren't somebody, then you were nobody. There was no in between. Again, this is simply my personal perspective and opinion.

What prompted all of this reflection and thought? While I was in Tyler this weekend my mom had a copy of the March 26, 2009 addition of the Pittsburg Gazette. I browsed through it and came across a section called "One Man's Opinion", written every week by Roy Knox. The title of this week's article was "The Truth is Well Hidden". He discussed how people at all levels of government, local and national, have pulled the wool over our eyes to hide the truth. He cited examples from past school borad elections to the more recent AIG bonus scandals and made sure to tie that to the Obama administration. He called Barney Frank "that fat mouth from Boston". He ended this section with, and I quote, "Lies and poor judgement, is that what this administration meant by "change."" Then, next to the article about lies is a section titled "What were you thinking?" with seven different opinions or points that I am guessing he wants to make. I supose I would need to be a more frequent reader of the Gazette to understand what this section is really about, but I'll do my best to sort it out for you. Here are a few of the bullet points:

1. Question: The new ball fields were paid for with taxpayer money, so why are the gates locked so we can't use them over the weekend? Answer: Are you really that dumb? Your family tree must look like a telephone pole. Police and fire dpartment vehicles, and city buildings are all paid with taxpayer money, but you can't drive the cars or live in the buildings.

2. Pope Benedict, after arriving in Africa, told reporters that condoms "increase the problems" of AIDS. He was quickly criticized by doctors and politicans as unrealisitc, unscientific, and dangerous. The Catholic Church would be better served if they clean up their own house before dispensing advice to the world. He needs to get rid of that goofy hat and get him a Notre Dame cap; it would help his image.

4. I didn't expect Texas to play that well against Duke. If they had shot free throws better, they would be advancing to the next round.

5. One out of three adults are obese is what I read the other day, while at the hospital. The other day 90 percent of the poeple we saw were obese and they weren't even patients.

So number one and number two were pretty condescending if you ask me. I know there are a lot of stupid people in the world that ask stupid questions and get their panties in a wad over things that they are ignorant of. However, you sound much more intelligent when you simply educate them of the facts rather than issue a condesceding statement. And seriously? He really went there about the pope??? I happen to agree that the comments made by the pope are unrealistc and unscientific. However, you can make the point without pigeon-holing the entire Catholic Church and calling his traditional mitre goofy. I'm anxious to find out if any of the few Catholics is Pittsburg will write a letter to the editor about taking offense to the comments. So he basically saying that people in glass houses shouldn't through stones. But he's in a glass house.........throwing stones.......What's next? Telling the ALL Muslims to take of their goofy head scarves and stop flying planes into buildings? I wonder what the Baptists in town would think if I told them to put down that goofy book they always read and open their eyes about how unrealistic and unscientific anti-abortion laws are. I know what would happen - and that's exactly why I don't live in Pittsburg anymore. So anyway, he goes to make an observation about a basketball game and obesity, which for the life of me I can't figure out what his point actually is. My Dad, along with many other men in Pittsburg, have a lot of small minded opinions about many of the same topics. They don't have a weekly column in the paper. Perhaps he has this column because he shares the same opinion with so many other people in the town and they enjoy reading what he has to say. (Except for maybe the Catholics that don't molest their children and live completed normal lives.) If this is case, then go ahead and mark that down as yet another reason why I don't live in Pittsburg anymore. So what qualifies this guy to give opinions on anything from sports to medical issues to politics and beyond? He's married to publisher of the paper.

I leave you with this thought: Opinions, like excuses, are like ass holes - everyone has one. Any idiot can have an opinion, but an intelligent and persuasive person will use discretion and facts when expressing one.


Sunday, March 22, 2009

Ketchup Blog

Get it, ketchup? Haven't blogged in a while.....it kills with the 6th graders.
I just haven't been in a blog mood and I haven't had a whole lot going on except work. Here are some facts to catch you up on my life:

1. Spring break was awesome! It was so nice to be at home and nurture the non-band director side of myself.
2. I love Blue Moon beer now.
3. I'm still madly in love with Zach Braff.
4. I had a crush on TJ Holmes from CNN until I found out his daughter is in our band.
5. I'm actually having fun at work for the first time.
6. I cut myself with a knife tonight. This is the first time I've ever cut myself and I was kinda freaking out.
7. I'm cautiously optimistic for the first time in life. I'm finally wrapping my brain around the fact that I'm not the new guy (or gal) anymore and I know more than I've been giving myself credit for.
8. Turning 30 in a few months is freaking me out. However, I want to have a huge party and invite everyone I've ever known. That means you. Yes, you.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Ice Day Blues

A free day off from school. Could have been a great day. I had a pancake brunch and watched some HGTV and had every intention of being productive in the afternoon. Then suddenly I had one sneeze that turned into the allergy attack of the decade. Luckily, I had some benadryl on hand in case I had an allergic reaction to the pain meds from the wisdom teeth surgery, but it just knocked me out for the whole afternoon. I wasn't going to get anything done around the house any way, so no harm no foul, I guess. I'm feeling a little better now and I guess I should be glad I was able to rest at home instead of being miserable at school. Wednesday is my least favorite day of the week anyway, so it was nice to have a little unexpected break on one, even if my nose is now currently red, raw, and sensitive to the touch.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

First Life Lesson of 2009

It became apparent to me on over the course of the past week that I need to trust my gut more. Since day one of teaching I've been insecure 90% of the time about not being good enough. I have felt out of my league with my small town East Texas roots. I am constantly self-evaluating because I always think I'm doing something wrong. Other parts of this insecurity stem from the fact that I feel my students are a reflection of my teaching and I equate their successes or failures with my teaching abilities. This means that if some ding-a-ling 11 year old still can't recognize an A on the staff that it is somehow my fault and if someone finds out one of my students can't read an A on the staff that they will think that I'm a ding-a-ling, too. Well, I think I finally realize that this isn't the case. I haven't been trusting my gut and have been swayed by perspectives that are not necessarily fully objective. I really need to start following what is inside of me. While I realize I am not any where close to being a veteran teacher that has all the knowledge of years of experience, I also realize that I'm not clueless. I know more than I've been giving myself credit for. It's time for me to stop second guessing myself and go with what I know is right for me. Am I going to make more mistakes? Yes. Am I going stop being so hard on myself? Hopefully. With age comes wisdom. I get it now.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Cosmic Hope

I was reading my horoscope for February in a magazine today and here's what it said about work:

Work Mode: Inspired. A new hire won't threaten your success - and could turn out to be the mentor you've been looking for.

We just found out Friday that a the director for the new high school was named and we got to speak with him about future plans. Turns out, he will be able to start visiting our campus twice a week starting next month! I would say it feels like a new chapter for my career, but it feels more like a whole new book. It's exciting to finally have a high school that will offer support and a place to send our students where they can continue on a positive journey. Change really IS coming!!

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Karmic Smack Down

The first few days of 2009 I was trying something new: optimism. This lasted a few days until the universe smacked me with a reality check. The first weekend of the new year I started to have a tooth ache in the back of my mouth. I was sure one of my wisdom teeth was FINALLY starting to push it's way in. So the first week back to school I missed two and a half days running around to the dentist and oral surgeon to have my teeth cut out of my head. I guess the lucky part of all of it was that I've never had any wisdom teeth in the bottom of my mouth, and people tell me that those are the worst. I can't imagine because having the top two out were bad enough. My mom came up to drive me to and from the procedure because they put me to sleep. She stayed around for a few days and stocked my fridge with lots of mushy foods. It was absolutely no fun. And missing work and getting behind and having to play catch up all week was no fun either. I was finally able to eat a good meal at the end of this week, although I still don't have much of an appetite. So, trying to have a renewed sense of optimism about things I kept telling myself that at least it happened now and not the week before contest, or the week of 5th grade band auditions, or during TMEA. Then SMACK - another reality check. I had a major flat tire. I had not driven my car for several days so it had just been sitting in my garage getting flatter by the day. After a friend put my donut tire on, I spent an hour and a half at the tire store only for them to tell me that the tire could not be repaired and I would need a new $200 tire. Great. But they didn't have the tire in stock and I had to go back the next day to get it put on my car. It ended up being a very expensive week for me and I'm not sure I like this optimism stuff. Maybe I'll give it a try again soon when I have more money in my savings account.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

For All You Shamwow Fans Out There

If you watched anything on cable TV over the winter break, then you have met Vince with Shamwow. If you haven't met Vince, then click here to get to know him and how you can clean up spills in fraction of the time.

Today I learned that Vinces pushes more than just the Shamwow, he also pushes the Slap Chop. Click here to see how you can chop anything in a fraction of the time.

I don't know about you, but I can't wait to see what other life changing, time saving gadgets Vince has to offer me in 2009.